I found her along a road, with a heavy chain wrapped around her neck,
still attached to rotten boards from her doghouse, with rusty six-penny
nails protruding. Not only did I know that most of the town had already
ignored her, judging by where I found her, but I knew that if she had
gotten into the woods the "cross" that she dragged behind her would have
wrapped around a tree until starvation or thirst killed her. The local
populace is usually deaf to the sound or blind to the sight of an animal
in need, unless they decide to shoot one for trespassing.
That her ribs showed, that her ears were filthy, that her overall condition
was poor and that her coat and eyes were dull, were good indications that
you didn't deserve her. But just to make sure, I checked with the local
authorities for a report of a missing (unlicensed) dog matching her description
and to see if you'd placed a "lost dog" advertisement in the local newspaper.
You hadn't, which I can only surmise means that you do not miss her. That's
rather convenient, because the fact that she is not spayed, probably unvaccinated,
and
possibly heartworm positive means that restoring her health could cost
me around a thousand dollars.
Perhaps it may be some small comfort to know that she doesn't miss you.
In fact, her very act of escape made it clear that she'd had enough
of your brand of pet guardianship. It took her about a day to realize that
I'm not you, that I won't hurt her, that despite our brief acquaintanceship,
I love her. It took two days for her to realize that the other animals
who live here accept her and that one of the joys she has been missing
has been the companionship of other dogs. It took three days for her to
appreciate the ecstasy of a homecooked meal and that a couch is meant to
be reclined on, and that she no longer has to sleep outside - in fact,
when the thunder starts, she'll get a hug and her ears rubbed, and I'll
make a fool of myself with baby talk.
She has a beautiful name now. Already in the first week she has come
to look more like she should. Her eyes sparkle and she has learned to wag
her tail in greeting. She has stopped flinching when I make a sudden
movement, because she knows now that I won't beat her, in fact, she
rarely leaves my side. She's even become brave enough to bark at a cat
and today I watched from the window as she initiated play with the other
dogs. No, it's clear she does not miss you or her former life of neglect
on a chain.
Of all the things that have become apparent from my brief relationship
with her - such as the forgiving nature of the dog, their wonderful ability
to heal and to trust, the fact that love can work miracles - one
of the most apparent is what a fool you are. She was possibly the most
trusting, loyal and loving being in your life, and you consigned her to
a life of filth and loneliness until she made the best choice she's ever
made when she broke free. Perhaps her guardian angel helped her escape.
Lest anyone should mistake me for an angel, I will admit that one day
I hope to be as good as she; I believe she forgave you within the first
twenty-four hours of her new life for the about four years of her previous
"life," while I still wrestle with the part of me that hopes that one day
you will burn in Hell.
It's not clear yet whether she'll remain here or whether I'll find her
a loving home where she can count on more individual attention than I can
give her, but one thing is certain, this is one bit of stolen "property"
who is never returning to you. So sue me, prosecute me, plead with
the courts that she is rightfully yours...I'm convinced this is the best
"crime" I've ever committed. Hardly anything has pleased me more than the
day I stole your dog. I need only look into her beautiful brown eyes to
know that she'd defend my decision with her life. If we have one prayer,
it is that you will not replace her, and if we have one special
day to commemorate together, it is the day I stole your dog and the
day she stole my heart.
When dogs go to Heaven, they don't need wings because God knows that dogs love running best. He gives them fields. Fields and fields and fields.
When a dog first arrives in Heaven, he just runs. Dog Heaven has clear, wide lakes filled with geese who honk and flap and tease. The dogs love this. They run beside the water and bark and bark and God watches them from behind a tree and smiles.
And, oh, the dog biscuits. Biscuits and biscuits are as far as the eye can see. God has a sense of humor, so he makes his biscuits in funny shapes for his dogs. Every angel who passes by has a biscuit for a dog. Every dog becomes a good dog in Dog Heaven.
God turns clouds inside out to make fluffy beds for the dogs in Dog Heaven, and when they are tired from running and barking and eating ham sandwiches and biscuits, the dogs each find a cloud bed for sleeping.
Dogs in Dog Heaven have almost always belonged to somebody on Earth
and of course, the dogs remember this. Heaven is full of memories.
So sometimes an angel will walk a dog back to Earth for a little visit
and quietly, invisibly, the dog will sniff about his old backyard, will
investigate the cat next door, will follow the child to school, will sit
on the front porch and wait for the mail. When he is satisfied that
all is well, the
dog will return to Heaven with the angel.
The dogs in Dog Heaven who had no real homes on Earth are given one
in Heaven. The homes have yards and porches and there are couches
to lie on and tables to sit under while the angels eat their dinners.
There are special bowls with the dogs' names on them. And each dog
is petted and reminded how good he is, all
day long.
Dogs in Dog Heaven may stay as long as they like and this can mean forever.
They will be there when old friends show up.
They will be there at the door. Angel Dogs.