I Watch You in Silence
I watch you in silence there in your bed,
Little feet twitching then you roll your head.
What are you dreaming, I think to myself,
Are you winning the race or being chased yourself?
You roll around and make a “sighing” sound,
I smile and I think…you lazy old hound!
You ate everything you were offered tonight,
Your tummy bulges, you’re a funny sight!
There’s nothing wrong with the picture I see
Except the decision that’s been placed on me.
The disease you carry can’t be reversed,
You seem fine now, but soon you’ll get worse.
I can’t put you through it; I love you to much
But now you seem healthy, how can I do such?
You’ve been my best friend for so many years,
The smile on my face just turned to tears.
We have sometime to get ourselves ready
Before your little body becomes so unsteady.
I’m unsteady now, my heart already grieving,
So hard for me to think of you leaving.
What will I do without you around?
When at my feet you can no longer be found?
To know I’m the one who sent you away,
Will you understand somehow, some way?
I can’t be selfish and keep you for me,
For suffer you would and that just can’t be.
The decision was made when the tests came in,
The decision left now is just to be “when”?
I watch you in silence and pray through my tears
For the strength that I need to face my biggest fear.
It’s here before me and my life it’s crushed,
To lose my little friend that I love so much.
Kathy Henderson
11 – 1998
If I Could Go In….
They say there’s a bridge that good doggies cross
To await their owners who suffered their loss.
What a comfort to think they’re all happy there
Of sorrow and pain they’re no longer aware.
The picture they paint is of complete bliss,
No worries, no cares, no human’s yet missed.
I vision the picture of their Heavenly den
And think to myself, I wish I could go in.
Where dogs are is where I want to be
For all the love there I’d hoard selfishly.
Never to many, never really enough,
For no dog to love for me is quite rough!
Just think how many would be round my feet,
So many to hold, so precious and sweet.
I’d understand their talk and we could just visit,
Oh if it could be so no way would I miss it!
To romp with them all would be such a hoot,
(although I’m not sure on my butt I would scoot!)
it does my heart good and soothes this lonely old soul
to think there’s a Heaven for dogs we love so.
If on this earth we earn ourselves wings,
They may let us in for a chorus to sing
With all the pets there, some loved and some not.
What a song to be sung with the love they’ve now got!
I wish to myself that I could go in…..
For where humans fall short, a dogs love begins!
Kathy Henderson
5 - 1999
If It Be Thy Will
Heavenly Father, if it be thy will
I’m returning to you one whose body’s now still.
You loaned her to me many years ago,
It’s so difficult for me to return her you know.
I have a favor if you’ll but hear my plea,
Would you hold her sometimes on Thy holy knee?
She likes to be scratched behind her ears,
A tummy rub to calms all her fears.
Of storms she’s afraid could you explain to her please
To tremble from fear there’s no longer a need.
Children she loves so would you allow her to play
With your tiny angels their wings she won’t fray.
She’s ever so careful with the little one’s
She knows they are fragile and has never harmed one.
Words I know fail to explain her perfection
No doubt in my mind, you need no explanation.
I know you know to how hard it can be
To give back a loved one and so loved was she.
She was an angel on earth that now flies with new wings,
Tho tears fill my eyes for her my heart sings.
To know that she’s happy with no fears and no pain
Eases my heart but the loneliness remains.
Here she is Lord, I’m sending her home,
She’ll stay close to you she won’t try to roam.
And so she won’t forget me would you tell her each day
How I love her and miss her, that I’ll be there some day
If it be Thy will, Lord, would you please hear my plea?
Kathy Henderson
7 - 1999
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