I shall wear Turquoise and soft gray sweatshirts... and a bandana over my silver hair...and I shall spend my Social Security Checks on Sweet Wine and My Dogs...and sit in my house on my well-worn chair, and listen to my dog's breathing.
I will sneak out in the middle of a warm Summer night and take my dogs for a run, if my old bones will allow... and when people come to call, I will smile and nod as I show them my dogs...and talk of them and about them...
The Ones so Beloved of the Past and the Ones so Beloved of Today....
I still will work hard cleaning after them and mopping and feeding them
and whispering their names in a soft, loving way.
I will wear the gleaming sweat on my throat, like a jewel, and I will
be an embarrassment to all...and my family... who have
not yet found the peace in being free to have dogs as your Best Friends....
These friends who always wait, at any hour, for your footfall...and eagerly jump to their feet out of a sound sleep, to greet you as if you are a God.
With warm eyes full of adoring love and hope that you will stay and hug their big, strong necks...and kiss their dear sweet heads...and whisper to them of your love and the beautiful pleasure of their very special company....
I look in the Mirror...and see I am getting old.... this is the kind of woman I am...and have always been. Loving dogs is easy, they are part of me, accept me for who I am, my dogs appreciate my presence in their lives... when I am old this will be important to me... you will understand when you are old.... & if you have dogs to love too.
Author Unknown
Kes
For the love of the one you own
You rent your soul
For the love of him who never questions
You sacrifice all
For one delve into those warm, forgiving eyes
You’d do anything
For the love of a dog
The one who always listened,
Never answered back
Soft body I clung to in hours of need
Tears soaked up with his warmth
Showed how to love
How to care
The spark of an obsession
An obsession fuelled by his example
Snatched away after so little time
To live elsewhere, the place matters not
It was not with me
When I wanted you, I fell into nothing
You helped your first master see
When all was dark for him
Gave the freedom no one else could
Then came to us
When your body was giving out
As you gave up the ghost I was somewhere else
Against my will
I would have given anything to be there
Hold you till the veil dissolved
And you were gone
I’ve never forgotten you, I never could
My time with you was precious
I give these words to you
As you play endlessly in Heaven
Wait for me?
For the memory of Kes
© Melanie Stilgoe 2004